Sunday, October 4, 2009

so today i:
had a coughing fit on the subway and looked like i had SARS/was sobbing
stood on the subway without holding on (it CAN be done!)
gargled 3 cups of saltwater (disgusting)
walked by right as a man pulled a woman into the street and laid a smooch right on her
(i felt awkward, then sad, then happy all at once)
saw a girl with an old cameo ring
thought i saw denzel washington, but was regretfully mistaken
ate strawberry gelato that was 5.25 in chelsea market
(and made my stomach hurt)
realized that i'm addicted to oyster crackers
ate a spoonful of honey hoping it would help my raw throat
mimicked some guy clip-clop staccato walking through carroll gardens
did NOT drink coffee
wanted to cuddle with a cat, not a kitten of my own
went (in route) to bed early

in chekhov class the other day, my teacher anya was talking about love and what an infinite, inexpressible phenomenon that it is. she heard this story of a child who was asked by his mother "how big is love? how big is your love for momma"
and instead of spreading his hands out and saying "THIS much" as so many kids do
he thought for a moment on "how big is love?"
and then he said
"it's the outside of the outside of the outside"

just think about that.